Thoughts from A Birthmom

The following letter was written by a 21-year-old birthmother who placed her baby for adoption through Generations two years ago. In addition to the letter she wrote to the adoptive family, the birthmother also wrote a letter to her caseworker in which she said: “Tell the adoptive parents I said hello and I love them for what they did. I’m so glad that I chose them to raise my baby! I know he is happy and I know that they love him!”

Hey, how is it going? I have been doing good I guess. I have been thinking a lot about Logan lately. They have different shows on T.V. about girls giving babies up for adoption and people who were adopted out searching for birth parents. I just cry my eyes out the whole time. I start thinking about Logan and I don’t want him to hate me for what I did! I don’t want him to think he wasn’t good enough for me since I had a baby 6 months ago and kept him. I would of kept Logan and raised him if I thought I could. I want him to know that this was the best thing for him. I love him so much and I think about him all the time! The red photo album that you gave me is filling up with photos of Logan. I love looking at them and seeing all the things he has done. I can finally look at them without crying! I would love some new pictures if you don’t mind. I want to see how much he has grown!  I am so grateful for what you did for me. I think about the day I left the hospital without a baby and it hurts so bad inside and then I just think about how happy he is and that he is well taken care of and I just smile! I would like for you to do just one thing for me…when you tell Logan about the adoption could you just let him know that I love him and I always will! Thank you so much for everything! I love y’all and I think about y’all all the time!